Julie's Journey

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

leaving in an hour



.... wouldn't want to be late to the worst thing that has happened to me in a while.

It's 10:30 now, leaving about 11:30 to the hospital. My surgery is at 3 PM, but have to be there by 1. We had crappy weather and lots of snow last night so we are leaving early.

Really stressing. Even though I know it needs to come out, I so don't want this surgery.

I already have a small case of gastroparesis. It can be a debilitating disease. People end up having to get feeding tubes put in for this. I am actually hoping it gets worse for me. I know this sounds terrible, and anyone afflicted with this would think I am incredibly crazy and just plain stupid for saying this.

But....

Even though it would (probably) make me incredibly miserable (as I know from the fairly small case I already have), it would keep me from eating too much and "finding" my lost weight.

The one surgical cure for it is bypass. Perhaps if I could get in sooner than 9 months for a bypass if it was "medically necessary".

I may just be suffering with a case of panic right now. No sane person wishes a painful, miserable condition on themself.

Just scared...

3 Comments:

Blogger Mindy said...

Good luck girl . I hope things go ok . give me a buzz when you are up to it and let me know how your doing.

February 8, 2011 at 6:34 PM  
Blogger Gen said...

Good luck Julie. I think absolutely the GBP should be considered medically necessary.

I also think in the end it will all be good. You will get the GBP and lose it all! You will not have to worry about fills and all that crap.

Sending you quick recovery vibes!

February 8, 2011 at 10:19 PM  
Blogger Marym said...

I hope that the surgery went well and that you are on the road to recovery Julie. Get yourself HEALTHY - the rest will fall into place. As you said - you have learned a lot in the past 2.5 years that you can rely on now.
Take care,
Mary

February 14, 2011 at 1:13 PM  

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