Julie's Journey

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Confession time....

I have been completely out of control. I was so proud... the first 5 weeks after my surgery I only gained 3 pounds. I am now up 11!!!! I am so unhappy about this. But, I know I only have myself to blame. I really have not been eating too much, it's been what I have been eating. Candy, cupcakes, basically anything bad for me.

I did go to my PCP. She agrees with me that my left arm/neck/shoulder pain is probably from my stomach, but she still wants me to have a stress test. I am going this Thursday for one. I also made an appointment with the gastroenterologist. I am seeing her in 2 weeks. I am hoping she will be able to order a test that will confirm my gastroparesis, then she will be willing to go to bat for me and suggest a gastric bypass as a cure fr it. I did manage to get my paperwork request in.... but I have not been OK'd yet. And I am so afraid of how much I will gain by the time I get to the top of the list in 9 or 10 months.

Why can't I keep myself under control??????

I can't believe what a weak willed person I really am. Jeez. Get over yourself, Julie.


Blogger Gen said...

DO NOT blame yourself. You lost your band!!!! For all of us, if we could have lost or maintained weight without a band we would have. I am praying for you, that you get approved for a bypass soon. Please be kind to yourself. It will get better.

April 3, 2011 at 9:55 AM  
Blogger Debi said...

Hi Julie! I found your Blog through Gen. I am so sorry to hear that you have had such a bad time of it with your Band.

I am afraid that I MAY be headed in the same direction! I go in for an Upper GI on Thursday to see if my problems are causing problems with the Band.

I am now Following you, and will definitely be interested to see if you finally get your Bypass approved. I will keep good thoughts for you that you do! I know that if I lost by Band, I would either want the Bypass or Gastric Sleeve done!

Debi: http://hawaiiboundbandster.blogspot.com/

April 4, 2011 at 7:31 PM  

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