Julie's Journey

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Confession time....



I have been completely out of control. I was so proud... the first 5 weeks after my surgery I only gained 3 pounds. I am now up 11!!!! I am so unhappy about this. But, I know I only have myself to blame. I really have not been eating too much, it's been what I have been eating. Candy, cupcakes, basically anything bad for me.

I did go to my PCP. She agrees with me that my left arm/neck/shoulder pain is probably from my stomach, but she still wants me to have a stress test. I am going this Thursday for one. I also made an appointment with the gastroenterologist. I am seeing her in 2 weeks. I am hoping she will be able to order a test that will confirm my gastroparesis, then she will be willing to go to bat for me and suggest a gastric bypass as a cure fr it. I did manage to get my paperwork request in.... but I have not been OK'd yet. And I am so afraid of how much I will gain by the time I get to the top of the list in 9 or 10 months.

Why can't I keep myself under control??????

I can't believe what a weak willed person I really am. Jeez. Get over yourself, Julie.

2 Comments:

Blogger Gen said...

DO NOT blame yourself. You lost your band!!!! For all of us, if we could have lost or maintained weight without a band we would have. I am praying for you, that you get approved for a bypass soon. Please be kind to yourself. It will get better.

April 3, 2011 at 9:55 AM  
Blogger Debi said...

Hi Julie! I found your Blog through Gen. I am so sorry to hear that you have had such a bad time of it with your Band.

I am afraid that I MAY be headed in the same direction! I go in for an Upper GI on Thursday to see if my problems are causing problems with the Band.

I am now Following you, and will definitely be interested to see if you finally get your Bypass approved. I will keep good thoughts for you that you do! I know that if I lost by Band, I would either want the Bypass or Gastric Sleeve done!

Debi: http://hawaiiboundbandster.blogspot.com/

April 4, 2011 at 7:31 PM  

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