Julie's Journey

Thursday, December 11, 2008

So disgusted... Whine warning ;))

I am really trying (and failing) not to get down. It has been forever since I've lost anything. I just don't know what to do.

I am fully aware you plateau when you diet, but jeez.... 2 freaking MONTHS???????.

I have been good so far. Have I been 100% good?? No. That is quite hard to do, after all.... life happens. I have been good 99% of the time. I have been very mindfull of my portion sizes, fat and calorie contents of what I was/ was not putting in my mouth. I will admit... if I was somewhere they were giving away free cookies, I would take one and have half. (this has been rare... maybe twice) When I was in MI, I had a small piece or two of my grandmas birthday cake (which I split with Kayleigh) I also had a couple miniature candy bars Kayleigh got for Halloween (hence the weight gain while there). But... for the most part, I had no problem turning down/ not eating anything I shouldn't.

I am starting to feel very deprived right now. I have not given in, and don't plan to. But..... it is just sooooo demoralizing to be doing what you should and still not losing. It is easy to say no when you are losing weight, but to not lose in 2 months?????

I got a fill, I bought (and use) my exercise bike. I thought it might be my protein drinks (I was using a LOT of peanut butter in them) So.... I cut them out. I have not had a protein drink in over a week. Still nothing.

Someone on one of my web groups posted a plateau busting diet. I may try that.

I just want to cry.

I have never regretted being banded (other than while I was having my "issues" at the beginning), but now I am kicking myslf for not considering bypass (even though I know the band was the right choice for me)

Add this to the fact that I have not gone down so much as one pant size. WTH???? How can you lose 55 pounds and not go down even one freaking size?????

Did I mention I could just cry??

Sorry for the whining post, hopefully I'll have better news soon.



Blogger Zena said...

I am so sorry you feel so bad Julie. I have just had a weight gain myself, but keep hanging in there!!! it can only get better ;0)
Thinking of you!


December 12, 2008 at 1:53 PM  
Blogger Donna said...

You need to stop beating up on yourself!! We didn't get this way overnight, and its not going away overnight either, as much as we wish it would. Food is an evil addiction. You have lost over 50 lbs which is wonderful. You will get there!!! It sucks when that stupid scale will not budge, but it will. Don't give up now!!! I have been so proud of you!! We all have setbacks. I think you need to increase your exercising a bit, and see if thats does anything. Love ya Donna

December 12, 2008 at 8:31 PM  
Blogger Beth said...

I'm sory, Julie. It's as if our bodies fight us sometimes. I too can't believe you could lose 55 pounds and not go down a pant size! WTH?? Virtual hugs your way.

December 14, 2008 at 9:23 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hang in there girl . How you doing ? Dont retreat during these times ! you know your ALWAYS welcome to call me anytime !

December 14, 2008 at 9:59 PM  
Blogger Diz said...

Ah Jules, don't worry. I too had the two month plateau and I was frustrated. But I had to stop thinking about it and just work my plan. I did mix up my exercise a bit and I also broke up my protein drink for breakfast with a little variety. Instead of drinking the drink 7 mornings a week, I only do 4 and have scrambled eggs or an omelette. I'm doing ok and still dropping weight, so don't let this period bring you down. Yes Jules, I cheated a bit, and still do. The occasional cookie or bit of pie/cake is not going to hurt you and will stop you from feeling deprived and bingeing. Keep the faith Sister. You've been through too much for this not to work.

Merry Christmas to you and your family. I sure appreciated you being here for me during my journey this past year. You are so wonderful, fun, inspiring and gutsy! This hasn't been an easy year for you..you've worked so hard! And by sharing you made it easier for me to work hard to. If you can do it, I can do it. Thanks Jules!

December 25, 2008 at 10:42 PM  

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