Julie's Journey

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I finally did it...

For those of you who have been with me for awhile.... remember when I bought the new jeans? (it will be a year Oct 1) I swore if I was not in them within the 90 days I had to return them I would return them. Well..... I did not return them. Today I was able to get them on!!!! They are quite tight still, but they were up, zipped...the whole nine yards. I will post the pics of them below.

I finally bit the bullet and went to an orthopedic surgeon a couple of weeks ago. My knees have been bad for years, clicking and making assorted other sounds, as well as quite painful. I have avoided going to a doctor because I didn't want to hear their s***. I figured, why pay someone to insult and belittle me when my mother would (gladly) do it for free??

Anyway, turns out I had a tear in the left knee meniscus on both sides of the knee (plus LOTS of arthritis) The doctor told me he can fix the tears but he's not sure if it will help me completely, because of the arthritis. I figure at this point anything will help. I have gotten to the point that I can't even walk for exercise. The kneecap is always trying to go out (it's sad when your knee goes out more than you!! ;) It has also been locking when I try to walk. I am so looking forward to having this done... hoping it will bring me some relief. I keep thinking about the series "Happy Days" There was an episode where Fonzie had to have knee surgery, on the day of surgery he was in the hospital and quite drugged up, he said "I'm going to the rip out room" So..... I guess I'm going to the rip out room soon too!!!

I'm still losing... which is, of course, a very good thing. I am pretty sure I can make my mini goal of 100 pounds lost before our next trip home to MI. (late Nov) Other than that it's the same ole-same ole. Dealing with the MIL and her cancer issues. She is done with chemo, now we are doing brain radiation. She goes back for another CT scan early November. Right now we are just waiting for the cancer to come back.

More soon......

Saturday, September 12, 2009

This is kind of neat

This blog was featured on the online weight loss surgery channel. The link to it is: http://ow.ly/p0gZ It was kind of a neat thing for me. So, if you are checking out this blog beacuse of that, welcome, and feel free to stay with me for the ride!!!

Also, if you are new, I would love it if you could drop me a quick comment to let me know you stopped by.

Thanks Yvonne, for featuring me ;))

Friday, September 11, 2009

I just realized....

When I looked at my ticker that I am half way to where I want to be. 81 down, 81 to go!!! I may decide to go lower once I get rid of the 81, but for now I am over the moon to be halfway!!!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

a great giveaway

I know I have mentioned the blog theworldacordingtoeggfaceblogspot.com, if you haven't checked it out yet...you should. She has great recipes that she is updating all the time. Right now I am making her baked beans (can't wait to try them!!!!)

She is having a contest right now to give away a big tub of her favorite protein powder. I am hoping to win it.

So check it out!!

My legs are shrinking!!!

I have been trying to find some clothes that fit. I went to Catherines the other day and hit the clearance racks (I love Catherines.. but they are so freakin expensive. I only purchase from the clearance rack there..... can't wait til I'm not held hostage and can shop anywhere!!)

Anyway... I found a pair of jeans but they are a petite. I have never worn a petite... and they were long enough!!! How weird. I guess I am getting shorter???

I met up with some of my band friends for our monthly Red Robin meeting and got lots of great new clothes. All of the pants are too long for me, of course, now with my much shorter legs. The jeans are cute as heck, and I am going to find a place to get them shortened (even the "average" ones are a bit too long.) Go figure.....

Changing the subject...

I am thinking about making an appointment with a psychologist. I think I probably really need it. In the past I have gotten down to a certain weight and stopped losing. I guess I am afraid of losing "me".

Sometimes I think it is easier on those bandsters who gained weight in adulthood. They know what it is like to be "normal".

I have never been "normal"

I have always been fat.

I suffered as a fat child, a fat teenager, and carried all that pain into adulthood. I never had boyfriends growing up. I never went to the prom (or any other dances with a date) I was always the "good friend" I suffered a lot of mental abuse from my mother I will not go into now. Lets just say she had a lot to do with making me who I am today.

I am an adult now. I need to get over it. I may need help with that.

Still losing. Later....