Not much going on

I gained one pound last week (I'm thinking it's fairly obvious when I gain... I don't even bother posting for that week) But I was down 2 pounds this week. Less than 40 pounds to -100. Maybe by that time I'll be in a smaller size, huh?? I know it's just numbers, but it so bugs me I am still wearing the same size jeans after 62 pounds lost!!!! Un-freaking-believable.

On the good side.. I finally made an appointment with my PCP to see about getting a CT scan ordered for my abdomen. It is getting bigger seemingly daily. It is possible that it is a natural thing (I watch Biggest Loser...< my only reality show>... and I see other big girls that seem to look the same way.) It could just be that I am losing weight around the area, making it look bigger. Does that make any sense??? I am experiencing pain in the area though.. and it seems to be growing a bit lopsided... so I guess it is time to have it looked at. I am almost at the point where my surgeon would fix a hernia (he said he would not fix it until I am at a 40 or less BMI. I am at about 43 or so now.) I just dread the though of a possble surgery (after all I've been through... can ya really blame me??? ;)

I'll post when I get an answer from the doctor. Have a great week everyone.

Just happy to be losing

Not too much going on here. I'm happy to say I am still losing steadily. I am so happy and thankful for that, since I know from bitter experience it can stop in a second.

I've been way too tight the last couple of days. I got stuck on Thursday at lunch (I have been doing that a LOT) We only get a half hour lunch... and when you have to sign out, walk across a very long room to the doors, then another long walk to the bathroom (since they frown on us going while on the phone... and believe me... it is quite difficult to wait when you are drinking 3 bottles of water before lunch) go to the bathroom, heat your lunch... that doesn't leave much time for eating. I have been eating too fast and getting stuck. Then, of course, it takes even more time when I have to go back into the bathroom to releave myself of everything I just ate (sorry if TMI). Anyway..... Usually I eat liquids for the rest of the day and I have no problems. Thursday I felt quite a bit of pain in my band area afterwards. Friday when I tried to eat something I felt definite pain (I didn't eat enough to get stuck...as soon as the pain started I switched right to liquids.) Same Saturday. I am going to try to have something nice and soft in a bit. Hopefully I will not feel any pain. This is so unusual to me.... I am sooooo afraid I have started to slip.

Oh well... I'll say bye for now and update when I can eat again.

A few recipie sites

Hi all. I have been trying to add a little variety to what I eat, and have found a couple of good websites. The first one is: http://lapbandeating.blogspot.com/2008/12/three-cheese-chicken-penne-pasta-bake.html This recipe is fantastic. I used whole wheat pasta and cooked the chicken in the crockpot as she suggests in another post. I also left out the spinach, since I don't do green stuff!!

The other website is http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com She has some good recipe ideas. I made the protein ice cream and it was wonderful. I did not have a ice cream amker, so I went on freecycle and asked for one...which I got!! I would recommend making this ice cream for yourself for a change of pace (and lets face it... to feel a bit more normal ;)

I'm a loser

.... finally!!!

I have not been posting lately... since all I had was bad news and the urge to whine.

I hope everyone is having a great start to their New Year, I am glad (and happy as heck) to say I LOST 2 POUNDS!!!!! I am hoping this was the start of much more loss.

Thanks for all the well wishes and encouragement, they have really meant a lot to me.

I will be posting again soon.

j