Julie's Journey

Friday, December 26, 2008

I wish....

Thanks Melissa for this site.

Check this out, guys. It is a neat website. It is a virtual picture of you how you would look after a weight loss. I just wish I would look the way they say after 50 pounds.


Thanks everyone for the kind words. I still am not losing, but it feels good to know there are people out there who understand, and are pulling for me.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

So disgusted... Whine warning ;))

I am really trying (and failing) not to get down. It has been forever since I've lost anything. I just don't know what to do.

I am fully aware you plateau when you diet, but jeez.... 2 freaking MONTHS???????.

I have been good so far. Have I been 100% good?? No. That is quite hard to do, after all.... life happens. I have been good 99% of the time. I have been very mindfull of my portion sizes, fat and calorie contents of what I was/ was not putting in my mouth. I will admit... if I was somewhere they were giving away free cookies, I would take one and have half. (this has been rare... maybe twice) When I was in MI, I had a small piece or two of my grandmas birthday cake (which I split with Kayleigh) I also had a couple miniature candy bars Kayleigh got for Halloween (hence the weight gain while there). But... for the most part, I had no problem turning down/ not eating anything I shouldn't.

I am starting to feel very deprived right now. I have not given in, and don't plan to. But..... it is just sooooo demoralizing to be doing what you should and still not losing. It is easy to say no when you are losing weight, but to not lose in 2 months?????

I got a fill, I bought (and use) my exercise bike. I thought it might be my protein drinks (I was using a LOT of peanut butter in them) So.... I cut them out. I have not had a protein drink in over a week. Still nothing.

Someone on one of my web groups posted a plateau busting diet. I may try that.

I just want to cry.

I have never regretted being banded (other than while I was having my "issues" at the beginning), but now I am kicking myslf for not considering bypass (even though I know the band was the right choice for me)

Add this to the fact that I have not gone down so much as one pant size. WTH???? How can you lose 55 pounds and not go down even one freaking size?????

Did I mention I could just cry??

Sorry for the whining post, hopefully I'll have better news soon.


Monday, December 1, 2008

Plateaus happen

I am so frustrated. I have only lost 1 pound in like forever (I don't count the 5 I lost a couple weeks ago... that was just re-losing the 4 I gained in MI. I know if I just keep buckled down and doing everything I can...I will lose.

It's just so hard to be stuck ;(((