I'm obese!!!!

My BMI has been catagorized as morbidly obese for years. Yesterday I dropped down to obese. Can't wait to get to overweight ;)))

My new favorite cook book

I bought a cook book!!!! It is Hungry Girl 1-2-3. I love this book. I have tried quite a few recipes in the last week or so. I even made BBQ chicken broccoli slaw today..... and I don't like broccoli!!!!

One of my favorite recipes so far is the BBQ Chicken crock pot recipe. Even the hubby liked it!!! The broccoli slaw is pretty good too ;)

Later.....

If only it were true.......

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?

A: Well, if you have body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.

Thought of the day

I used to eat a lot of natural foods until I learned that most people died of natural causes.

Got a fill

I went for a fill yesterday. I got .4cc's. I am a bit under 7 cc's now. I am hoping this kick starts my loss.

When I first weighed in the medical assisatant was like "Wow, you've lost 20 pounds since the last time you were here... that's great!" Then I found out that was last July!!!!!!

The surgeon I was seeing there is now gone, so I asked the other surgeon about fixing my hernia. He came in and checked it out. He asked me if I was going to want to have plastic surgery (I would... though not sure if it is ever going to happen) He told me he would suggest waiting until my weight has stabilized, since insurance does not pay for P.S. Usually the hospital will give you some sort of break on what you have to pay out of pocket for the plastics when you have an insurance covered procedure at the same time. This was the deal I worked out for the payment on my band surgery when I had the hernia repaired (the second time!!!)

He told me at the rate I am going he sees me getting down to 140-150 pounds. Are you kidding me????? It has taken me almost 2 years to get down almost 100 pounds. Another 100???? Unless I make some huge changes (mainly exercise) it is going to take me for-ev-er to lose another 100.

I told the nurse doing my fill about the remark Dr Metz made last time I saw him when I told him I was eating too few calories. He said "People in concentration camps ate less than that and lost weight" She was quite taken aback by this. I told her I found it VERY offensive. She agreed, and said she was so suprised he said this... especially since he is Orthodox. She apologized for this (though, of course, it was not her fault). I still find this offensive and disturbing every time I think about it.



I know when you are first banded you are told you need to listen to your body and your "soft stops". I have not been doing this. My big one is when I am full my nose runs a bit. I never listen to this stop. I am going to start listening to it. I don't care if I have only eaten 3 bites. I am going to put the fork down and walk away. This is going to be quite difficult for me, since I still really love eating.

I am hoping between this and the increased exercise I will start losing at a quicker pace.

Quote for the Day

I have found that if you love life, life will love you back. -Arthur Rubinstein

Just call me Grace.....

I saw a couple of moving sales where they had treadmills listed on Craigslist, and I decided to check them out today. The first one I went to I found a treadmill I wanted, but needed to wait for Ron to help me pick it up.

We went back to where it was (a town home a couple of miles from my house) It has about 3 steps leading up to the front door. Wouldn't you know, I fell. I managed to get a knot on my right knee, a bruise on my left shin, my right wrist and middle finger hurt, as well as one of the toes on my right foot (probably from when both shoes came off).

Figures..... going to pick up exercise equipment and I manage to fall

Ah well. I am looking forward to using my "new" equipment. It is nothing special, it is a Pro-form Crosswalk. It is not super fancy, but has the things I need... speed control and incline. I tried it out while there, and it works well. It was only $75. I would really like a new machine with all the bells and whistles, I would really like the one with Google Maps on it. Here is the info on it:

One of the most interesting features of iFit Live, that may just change the way we workout on treadmills, is the ability to Interact with Google Maps. You can select trails or roads on Google Maps and simulate running on them. Your treadmill will mimic the incline of the terrain. You can view your progress either with a street view, if available, or by the map or satellite view. For example, I am told you could run the Boston Marathon or the Great Wall of China.

How awesome. Maybe after the next money tree harvest......

I need to get motivated

My motivation has gone to hell in a handbasket lately. It's not that I don't want to lose weight, it's just that I can't seem to find the motivation to do so.

I am still flirting with 90 pounds. I was as low as 94 pounds lost, but went back up to 90.

I just got back from visiting my family in MI. We spent time with my grandmother. It was quite bittersweet. My grandparents are both 92 years old, and grandpa is in a nursing home. I am pretty sure that was the last time I will see my grandmother. She has been suffering from kidney failure for awhile, but was told it has gotten worse while I was there. I realize I am very fortunate to have reach my age and still have a set of grandparents still alive. I have friends who's grandparents died when they were young, or even before they were born. To be closer to 50 than 40 and still have them is amazing.

I always gain quite a bit of weight while in MI. I have a bad habit of getting off the plane, coming home and weighing myself. OK, OK.... my name is Julie, and I am a scale addict. Anyway, I am usually up 12-15 pounds at this point. I struggle with my eating while I am there, my grandma just doesn't get it. For instance, when we first got there she told me she had not one, but 2 mud pies in the freezer. Now, I know I am an adult, and have the ability to say no, but I don't. I know the only one I will be hurting is myself, yet still I indulge while there. This last time I went with a Who Cares? attitude. I ate badly the whole time I was there. I had cakes, pies, ice cream, milk shakes, candy... all the things I never eat any other time (or extremely rarely... after all this is a life style here, not a diet). Anyway...... I do my usual post flight weigh in, and imagine my surprise when I am up 2.6 pounds!!!! Are you kidding me???? 2.6????? I was expecting 12.6, at the least. Now I wonder how I would have done had I been "good"?

Ah well.... that is spilled milkshake under the bridge.

So........

Here is my plan.

1) Get a fill. I am scheduled next Thursday at 4 PM.

2) Chart my food and exercise. This tends to keep most of us on track better.

3) Exercise!!! I am looking to buy a used treadmill. I would love a new one, but just don't have the 2 grand to drop on the one I would love to have.

4) Have Ron hide the scale. I am too focused on what it says (going back to the scale addiction thing). I have to trust that when I do things correctly, the weight will come off. I really need to cut back to one weigh in a week. Someone help me please...... I have a scale monkey on my back.

5) Keep up on this blog. I have slacked off in the last 2 years (Wow... I am almost at my 2 year mark!!!!) I love getting feedback, it makes me want to do better, as well as has some accountability to it.


So... this is my big plan, so far. I will be checking in at least once a week (though I would love to do more)

So, welcome to the continuation of my journey...........